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Mom.
Suddenly saw old post tagged to my FB account. A post written by my mother when I got hospitalized for 10 days in 2015. She wrote:
Ya Allah yg Maha Memberi dan Menguji..
Saat ini aq tdk bs menghadap MU utk meratap, memohon dan meminta melalui sholat...
Saat ini aq tdk bs menghadap MU utk meratap, memohon dan meminta melalui sholat...
Suara hati q hadirkan utk MU Yg Maha Suci n mensucikan...
Kalau penyakit yg Engkau berikan kepada anak q adalah suatu ujian, cobaan aq ikhlash Ya Allah Yang Maha Pemberi Obat...
Kalau ini adalah azab MU jangan Engkau berikan kepada anak q...
Dia anak sholehah Ya Allah...anak yg baik...anak yg membahagiakan lingkungan sekitarnya...tdk sekalipun dia mengecewakan kami sbg org tuanya....
Kalau saja ini azab dan mrp hukuman bagi aq cukup Ya Allah kr aq merasakan sangat berat pukulan MU...
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pemberi Obat dan Kebahagiaan Ya Allah....
Angkat dan hapus penyakit dan dosa anak q Ya Allah...krn saat Engkau beri penyakit saat itu pula dosanya dihapuskan...
Yaa Allah berikan kesehatan itu... cukupkan ujian, cobaan ataupun azab MU...
Yaa Allah Yang Maha Pemberi Obat...
sembuhkan penyakit anak q...
sembuhkan penyakit anak q...
Aamiin Yaa Robbal Alamiin...
Mhn kpd yg membaca suara hati q...
utk ikut mendoakan anak q Khoirunnida agar sembuh dr penyakitnya...
utk ikut mendoakan anak q Khoirunnida agar sembuh dr penyakitnya...
Semoga Allah membalas kebaikan kalian semua...Aamiin Yaa Robbal Aalamiin...
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I cry. a lot.
My mother still sees me as a good human being, even after every bad things I have done to her. Kadang bangun telat...... nggak ngepel, nggak nyuci, nggak beresin rumah. Kadang pulang sampe rumah habis kerja cuma mau bobo.... padahal yang lebih capek itu mama. Dan sekarang, kalo gue sakit sedikit beliau udah khawatir berlebihan, harus langsung ke rumah sakit. Padahal mah sakit biasa. Dan hal2 buruk lainnya.
Dear mom,
I will never ever forget your face when you saw me dying in that night. A night when I thought I could die young. I will never ever forget how you cried and said "this girl is so strong.. she never shared any of her stories. she keeps everything in her heart since she was a child". Mom, I am sorry to make you cry in that night. I am sorry if I never shared any of my sadness to you. This is just how i love you.. I don't wanna be anyone's burden. And I am okay to keep everything all by my self. Afterall, I learn it from you. You always smile no matter what happened in your life. You always put great effort so that you can see everyone happy.
Dear mom,
I wish Allah forgive your sins and accept your deeds. May Allah grant you jannah. For there is eternal happiness. May your sorrow fade away the moment you walk into jannah. May we all will meet again there.
Dear Mom,
I don't know if I will be able to face life without you by my side. That is one my biggest fear.
cant write anything to express how much I am grateful to have you as my mom. I love you. forever and always.
