Rumah kosong Sudah lama ingin dihuni Adalah teman bicara Siapa saja atau apa Jendela, kursi, Atau bunga di meja Sunyi, menyayat seperti belati Meminta darah yang mengalir dari mimpi Jendela, kursi, atau bunga di meja Sunyi, menyayat seperti belati (Banda Neira) ...

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I understand how challenging parenting might be in my era few years later. Oh, how I haven't even become a good woman til right now. That is why everything doesn't need to rush.... Masih banyaak banget hal yang harus dipelajari, dibenahi, disusun dari sekarang. I will take care of you all with all my best, oh dear apple of my eyes. Diriwayatkan Al-Hakim,...

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Kemarin, gue jatoh 2 kali (di tempat yang berbeda) sampai lutut gue berdarah, lecet, dan bengkak sampai sekarang. Padahal pake rok jeans terus dalamnya pakai celana panjang juga, tetep aja ni lutut jadi korban. Gue emang gak belajar dari kesalahan kemarin, harusnya gak usah jalan cepet-cepet. Jatoh sampai 2 kali kan makanya. yup, no need to rush. melangkah dengan mantap, tidak perlu tebruru-buru....

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Finally. Hundred of papers that i have been working in the past few months is already submitted. Thank you for the sleepless nights, the tears, the oh-how-lame-your-writing-is,  the coffee, the dramas, the how-stupid-i-am feeling, the crazy talks, the tiring days, the laughs with friends in campus lab in the middle of the night, the i-need-someone-right-now attack, the hunger in the middle of night,...

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catching up blog in this D-7 deadline. chapter one to five are already finished except one theory in chapter two to write. i planned to submit my thesis on D-7 actually, but, i was beyond leha-leha 'til i am running out of time. the challenging part is, i have to stay over night in campus to completely finish my thesis because my laptop...

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You are a warrior. Warriors do not give up, they do not back down. So pick up your sword and shield and you go fight. You go fight! I will be with you.  ...

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This video by Ustadz Armen Halim Naro (rahimahullah) is really soul-feeding. Feeling like torn apart every time I listen to this lecture. O, soul, what do you expect from this dunya? ...

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Alhamdulillaahi 'ala kulli haal. Today I lose my laptop. My mom's window car was broken by the thief. It actually was weird because we just left the car for about 15 mins, near Nenek Adit's house. I was the first one realizing window was crashed.. and (stupidly) I immediately was in tears because.. I lose my laptop. My almost-four-years laptop with thousands of...

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Welcoming june. it's been 4 years since i don't celebrate any birthday, including mine. also, it's been four years since i have avoided to say any saying like "happy birthday" or "happy milad" or whatsoeva to my friends. simply because birthday is not coming from islam and it is tasyabbuh bil kuffar (#conservativemoslem: mode on) but.. i don't know why i started to...

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