Today's sadness: I happened to (kinda) hit a motorcycle in front of me. I got very tired in the morning. The kind of tired I felt when I was about to get hospitalized last year. Scared me to the bone. I had a very very bad time on tanjakan parkiran Gramedia depok. It was damn embarrassing, making me want to cry (my driving...

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God sent me so many blessings. Therefore, I have to focus reaching my dreams and removing all the negativity in my mind. How the f do I have time to think about cheesy things when there are so many people dying outside? I know I can not solve all this world's problems.  But, in this academic way I take, God... please let me do...

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For the first time in forever, I have this very huge fear about my self. The kind of fear that creates butterfly on my stomach, making me like I want to puke. Friends asked me several questions last night, and I actually didn't know if what I answered was me or not. I know nothing about who I am.  Maybe. Just maybe. I...

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"Look at me, I am lonely and I love it," said moon. ...

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Another night like those days Since I was a child, I had never been into any group or circle of friends. I trust almost none. Up until now, I can count people whom I trust with only one of my hands. The one and only way people can understand why I am like this is by knowing my whole life story. But only...

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Everyone's off on a mission  some that are simple to see like mending an age old division  or saving a cat from a tree  but some are more subtle  all folded and rolled like warming a heart that is been left in the cold or starting from scratch when you've all but retired or learning the difference between scared and inspired or counting...

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Life is ups and downs. You've spent almost 4 hours talking with your work mates: talking, laughing, playing games, feeling happy. But then, darkness suddenly hit in you on the face. Same feeling, over and over again. Truth is, it feels painful sometimes.  But, more often, it doesn't feel like a pain anymore because I am very used to it. This issue belongs...

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One fine day, you are sitting on the comfort chair in a college lab. Looking back things you have done today: making writing progression of your paper, reading discrete math books, doing IELTS exam simulation, assisting students in doing their linear algebra tasks, this and that. You feel cool in your own way. This is what you always have been wanting. This is...

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