maa qodarallahu khoyr. Well, how am I going to write about this...  So, I just got my LPDP scholarship final announcement few minutes ago. I failed. again (second time!). The good thing is, I am not even crying or whatsoever. Yes, I am a human and I kinda felt a very very slight sad because I felt like I made my family disappointed,...

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Hi, blog. I don't know why but I feel like telling you how my life is going on right now. Vulnerabilities. This, this is ain't easy to talk here. But I am trying to write down what I've been thinking in these past days. I got two comments about me and how vulnerable I am. Yes! those who said it clearly used the...

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Here again, me and the idea of love. Today, I feel like I need a validation, a feeling of secure. I did some stupid things like usual. First, I have been sent wrong documents for my conference application for several times, like more than 4 times in a row. I did even put my supervisor's names wrong. I feel so embarrassed. Second, I...

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It's sooo crazy sometimes to find my self feeling really sad when I happened to see/hear a slight negativity in my surrounding.But that's okay... because it is me!! There will be no 'me' without the extreme feelings, right? Lol.Alhamdulillaah. Alhamdulillaah. Alhamdulillaah. All praise is to Alloh for everything happened in my life. I know, there will always be sad moments, disappointments, and another...

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Hi, It's been days I got flu and cold, and I finally went to doctor yesterday. All praise is to Allah, now I am feeling much better. And I treat myself with having a usual weekly-self-pamper routine, lol. I don't know why but such activity makes me happy, mentally and physically.  On this very first day of October, I wish this month will...

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