Hi.
Here it comes to what I am afraid of when I post good things on my blog or my twitter, or other social media I have.Someone said:

Nid, lo harusnya malu sama blog lo kalo masih gini

Jadi gini sebenarnya malam ini gue marah sama seorang anonim yang bawa-bawa nama gue di suatu post. Ya mungkin terlihat sepele bagi lo sampai lo bisa bilang gue baper. Tapi nggak buat gue, udah cukup kelewatan. So I decided to be my hero when I needed it. Gue jadi nge-gas.

Dan guess what, Khoirunnida emang sepertinya diharapkan untuk gak marah-marah ke orang.
Dear people, bukan kah gue juga mausia? Bukankah gue harusnya bisa marah? Bisa nangis? Gue bisa ngajak lo berantem? Gue bisa nge-gas kalo lo nya juga nyolot?

Urgh. I feel like a totally loser now.
Can not you just understand that I also am a human?
If you want to tell me not to be that angry, Why do you have to relate it to my blog? 
Why do not you just tell me that I am not supposed to be that angry because I am simply a muslim?

Ok, after thinking for a couple of mins.
I realize that it is all my fault to react to un-important post that way
I still believe I need to give lesson to that person, but not in the way I did.
I am a representative of a Islam and I shouldn't be that angry.......
I say too much good things but I don't even do any of them.
It will be all my fault if people see Islam bad because what I am doing.

I thought the best way to end all good images on me is by deleting all good posts in this blog.

But a couple of seconds ago, this girl just realized that it is really a bad idea.
Those posts could be my deeds, right?

But still, deep down inside, I just want people to see me as a common girl.

A girl who can fall in love.
A girl who loves to watch drama series.
A girl who cries a lot when she is watching romance
A girl who loves Inuyasha
A girl who is really sensitive she could eat you to death.
A girl who yells out to his sister next room
A girl who goes home in night
A girl who works
A girl who likes KFC so much she could eat it everyday
A girl who fails very often in baking even though she loves it
A girl who can't cook, she has to see the recipes first

I just want to be looked like that.
As a human. As a girl.

But I remember a nice lesson from my best friend. That person once experienced it and all he said was, "I am done expecting people not to expect anything from my self. I'll just let them see me from their point of view"

Yup, I can't force people to think me like who I really am.
The way you want to see me is all your choice.

If you see me as a hi-tech girl, sok atuh.
If you see me as a tijel girl, Silahkan.
If you see me as a childish one, you may.
If you see me as a smart one, there you go.
If you see me as retarded one, it is okay.

I have no right to drive your thought at all.
I'll just let you see me from your perspective.

If it is a bad one, I hope I won't be like that.
If it is a good one, I hope I will be like that.

At the end of this early morning, all I can say is

Do not see Islam the way you see me. Islam is perfect but I am not.
I am still trying to live my life as real muslimah, tho.
I need your du'a.
Hopefully I can be better and better everyday.

Ciao!

Hi.
Entah kenapa inspirasi untuk nulis post ini datang begitu saja saat gue baru menyelesaikan salah satu proposal kajian islam ilmiah dari FKI UI.

Gue sering banget ditanya sama adik-adik gimana rasanya kuliah di Universitas Indonesia dan being a stranger there. Dan apakah UI recommended untuk jadi kampus impian para tholibatul 'ilm? Well, here is my answer.

Disclaimer: gue tidak mendiskripsikan gue sebagai stranger, I am really far from the definition of stranger itself. Well, gue mau menekankan bahwa apa yang gue bahas dibawah ini pure dari sudut pandang gue dan pengalaman-pengalaman yang gue alami. Apa yang salah itu datangnya dari Khoirunnida.

Before UI happens

Ada beberapa background seseorang yang bermanhaj salaf belajar di UI, diantaranya:

1. Orang tua juga bermanhaj salaf dan sangat mendukung anaknya kuliah di UI; I have nothing to say about this. Masya Allah
2. Mahasiswa mendapat hidayah saat kuliah di UI; Tiati aja paling lo dibilang ikut NII. Satu kata: SELOW. 
3. Orang tua tidak bermanhaj salaf dan menyuruh anaknya kuliah di UI; Kalo lo dalam situasi seperti ini, well I have some advices below

First step, define your objective first.

Di semua hal yang kita lakukan di muka bumi ini harus punya tujuan dong, ya. Lo mau tidur siang ya tujuannya apa? Untuk ibadah? Untuk menghilangkan ngantuk? Untuk menghabiskan waktu? Apalagi kuliah. Cek dulu tujuan lo apa. Apakah lo mau kuliah buat menyenangkan hati orang tua saja? Untuk jadi cendekiawan muslim? Biar keren? Yang paling oke ya lo bertujuan kuliah untuk beribadah, dong.

Gue ngerti lo mungkin ngerasa bahwa diri lo nggak akan kuat kuliah di UI dengan segala macam pemikiran yang ada di dalamnya. Tapi kalo dengan lo nolak mentah-mentah permintaan orang tua lo supaya lo kuliah di UI akan berakibat fatal bagi hubungan lo dengan ortu....... gue sih nyaranin lo nurut aja. Sabar aja dulu.

Second step, know your self!

When UI happens

Tips 1: Do not think that because you are a stranger, people don't wanna be your friends.

People will love you for who you are. Believe that :) 

Tips 2: Stick to your bestfriends in deen.

Tips 3: Find your community

Tips 4: Do not think negative

Wah fulan sekarang jadi ketua XXX di fakultasnya, pastilah ia terkena fitnah tahta.

Hmm kok fulanah jilbabnya sesiku doang padahal dulunya ia sering pake yang all black sampe se-kaki-kaki

Wah si fulanah lagi magang di tempat periklanan. Nampak sudah hakikatnya. 

Wah si fulan udah jarang ngaji di tempat kita nih.... udah terkena syubhat rupanya

Girls, stop thinking negative. Usir deh tuh pikiran negative jauh-jauh. We don't step in their shoes, right? Gausah ngejudge. Kalo emang ngerasa teman, ya ajak ngobrol dong. Tanyain kenapa dia nggak ngaji lagi. Gausah berspekulasi. Doain. Harusnya sama sodara sendiri mah atuh dikasih pikiran positif merekanya. Bisa aja Fulan punya misi tersendiri loh, yaitu untuk menegakkan syariat Islam di fakultasnya. Atau si Fulanah bisa aja emaknya murka kalo dia ketauan pake jilbab sekaki, dst. Nid, jangan curhat.

Tips 5: Organization? Other communities? Why not?

Kalo lo udah tau limit lo sampe mana, ya atur aja. Tapi gue saranin sih amannya lo ikutan LD atau LDF aja gitu, supaya ga banyak yang campur baur ya pilih departemen kemuslimahan. Pengalaman dari diri sendiri, sih. Ohya kalo misalkan lo kayak gue yang suka bandel, I warn you from the very beginning aja nih ya: lo akan menemukan situasi yang sangat bertentangan dengan pemahaman lo dimana lo kapok parah. Kasus yang terjadi di gue itu saat kemarin gue datang ke suatu meetup tentang marketing, eh isinya orang minum beer everywhere depan mata gue. Hayati gakuat!!!! Terus kapok dan janji akan picky untuk masalah meetup. Huuu.

Nah di LD atau LDF juga pastinya akan ada hal-hal yang beda, basically emang karena pemahamannya beda kan? hehee. Jadi ya enjoy aja... Lo nggak harus ikutin semuanya kok. Jadi batu aja..... :P

Tips 6: Do not forget to come to raudhatul jannah!

Kalo lo anak rantau, jangan khawatir, di UI dan sekitarnya banyak majelis ta'lim. Asal lo niat ya pasti bisa. Jangan lupa buat dateng ngaji, sih... Penting banget. Ada yang ngaji kitab, ada yang kajian tematik. Ya ikutin aja. Kalo emang jadwal lo padat banget, lo download aja tuh kajian-kajian di kajian.net, atau kajian kitab-kitab yang diadain asatidz juga banyak rekamannya. yufid-ing aja. Takut kuota internet abis? Girls, ke Fasilkom aja numpang download sepuasnya. hehee. Contact me aja ntar gue temenin kalo gue lagi lowong (sok sibuk). Tapi jangan lupa untuk tetep duduk di taman-taman syurga, ya!

Tips 7: Be smart

Belajar yang benar ya, dek. Jangan bolos. Jangan kayak diri ini heheee. Jadilah muslimah yang pintar akademis, muslimah yang bisa merepresentasikan how Islam teaches you to be good. Belajar bareng teman, pinjam buku di perpus, di kelas jangan bobo. Bisa aja orang jadi mikir like "Ih Masya Allah ya dia tetep pintar padahal ngaji mulu, jadi mau ngaji juga sama dia". Gak dikit loh orang yang gue kenal jago fiqh, bahasa arab, islamic finance, dan dia jadi asdos juga di fakultasnya. Waah... masya Allah deh.

Tips 8: Remember Allah.

Most important. Dalam situasi apapun, dimanapun, kapanpun, ingatlah Allah. Ini akan menghilangkan segala sayatan dan luka yang ada di hati lo saat lo memegang teguh bara api. Remember Him, Allah Jalla Jalaluhu.

After UI happens

It is a wrap! Sekian tulisan dari gue. Gue bukanlah stranger seperti kalian yang bayangkan. By reading my posts on this blog, you will know who I really am. Gue mungkin terlalu gaul, limitless, or whatever you name it, but I am just trying to comfort my friends in deen who think that they are alone when they are not.

Yang salah itu datangnya dari gue. Correct me if I am wrong by giving comment below this post. 

Kepal jari jadi tinju! UI UI kampusku! Bersatu almamaterku, UI!

Hi.
It's me writing in Pancoran Barat Transjakarta Shelter. I'll probably continue writing when I'm in TJ bus. When you read this, I am already in home.
Yap, this is my new blogging habit.
Writing when I am bored on my way to something, and then post it when I'm at home. Thanks to Evernote!

Dear readers, you probably won't read this. This post will be all about me as the main character. I warn you from the very beginning, I am a girl with stories. You will hate listening to my stories.

I am currently working in a digital agency initialed EA. It is located in Mampang Prapatan, Jakarta Selatan. I am in a social media team there.
It's actually not my first job. You can see my previous jobs in my LinkedIn profile: here.

Hi.
I actually am writing this post by phone. 
I am sick of listening to things about the way I dress
People say, do not dress like that because you are not a virtuous girl. Well I am not. I am not a virtuous girl. I have bad manner, I do not say good things all the time. I am a sinner. A truly sinner.
But, hijaab is an obligation from Allah. I just do it for the sake of Him. I look for no attention. I wear it because I avoid attention tho. My sin is bigger than this earth, I bet. But I still want to worship Allah. I dress for Him.
So you have no right at all to tell me not to wear it.
I am not sad if the one who says it is non Muslim. But what makes my heart broken into pieces is that a Muslim says it. Right in front of me.
Dear people, I understand that you know about this obligation but you think I shouldn't wear hijaab like sahabiyah of Rasulullah because I am not one of them. Just a little bit fashion is ok in this modern era, do you think so?  Well, I am not one of sahabiyah. But I do this for the sake of Allah. To follow Qur'an and Sunnah. To do what Rasulullah taught us to.
Dear people, I understand that you might be thinking about me going into a takfiri firqoh or something like that. Well, I am not. Trust me. I have been taught Islam since I was a baby. I went into Madrasah Diniyah when I was an elementary schooler. I have known a lot of firqoh, and I am not one of them.
Dear people, I understand that you think I am still young. But what if I'll be dead tomorrow? If an old lady has her right to wear hijaab, why can't I? Why do you mock me for wearing it? Why don't you mock the old lady too? If death comes to me right now, all you can do is praying for me and probably crying over me. But will you accompany me in grave? Nope. It is only me and my deeds under ground.
Dear people, I understand you are afraid of me being poor. Really? Is there a particular relation between hijaab and poverty? Ok if you mention an exact example of our neighbor, well it is not fair. I can mention how many muhsinin are blessed with richness. They spend money for the sake of Allah. And about our poor neighbor, all I can say is: remember that Rasulullah said that he is never afraid of poverty. Dunya is what we should be afraid of. For its temptations are really really great.
Dear people, I understand you are afraid of me not enjoying my life because of this. But you should know, I am the happiest girl on earth. You can't force me to define my happiness like yours. My happiness is found when I worship Him.
Ok, if you want to see my life from dunya perspective.... Here it is: I am a 20 girl with a lot of friends from many circles. I am studying information system in the best university in my country. I am having a part time job at a digital agency. I was a teaching assistant, research assistant, and so on. I am a super friendly person on earth. I am fluent in English. My IQ is above 140.
Should I mention you more?
No. Because you will only find my weakness. You will be ended up saying "but you will get no job without that dress". Yeah, what if I really wanna just be a house-maker with my bachelor degree?
Dear people,
It is my right, my choice, my freedom. My hijaab is my liberation. Please please please understand. If you can not follow it, just understand that it is all my choice. If you can understand banci di jalanan, why can't you understand me?
Dear people, either you love it or not, I will not stop wearing hijaab for sure. I write this post so you can have a better perspective. That I, and other hijaabi/niqobi, have our rights to wear hijaab or even niqaab. 

Dear muslimin,May Allah firm our hearts upon the truth. I love you for the sake of Allah. May We meet in Jannaah.

ما ارتفع شيئاً إلى السماء أعظم من الإخلاص ، ولا نزل شيئاً إلى الأرض أعظم من التوفيق وبقدر الإخلاص يكون التوفيق ..

Hi, everyone.
I wish you a good day, as good as mine. No, not my good day. But my good day coffee, which I drink almost everyday.

*Khoirunnida starts writing a post  by crunchy jokes*

So, I want to write you about a phenomenal mobile application: Secret.

Secret is an iOS and Android app that allows people to share messages anonymously within their circle of friends, friends of friends, and publicly.

It's like a twitter but we are anonymous. Di Secret, kita bisa ngeshare untuk teman doang, yang di-derive dari teman Facebook. Atau dari nearby yang didapat dari GPS. Walau kadang-kadang nggak terlalu akurat juga, sih.

• LGBT; I can't stand for this, seriously. Kadang gue baca satu-satu komentarnya, kadang nggak.
• Gossip; Gosip artis lah, gosip kampus lah. Ku menghindari ini sebisa mungkin buat dibaca. Ga guna, euy.
• Haters' sayings; Ada aja laah haters-nya yang ngatain orang lain. Huft, pucing pala princess bacanya.
• Nice discussion; Bisa berupa ide bisnis yang bagus, pandangan tentang politik, cara diet yang oke, merk shampoo yang bagus, dll.
• Random but funny; Ini buat hiburan! Lucu, khoirun sering banget ketawa-tawa baca secret yang kayak gini.
• Advice seeker; Permasalahan keluarga, rumah tangga, friendship sampe relationship :P
• Sex; Ya ini paling annoying, i never seen its comments.