Yesterday, something happened to me. Something so little yet it slaps me mentally, making me realized how sinful I had became. People, the only reason why you still look me kind is only because Alloh has covered all of my sins perfectly. So perfect that it makes you think I am kind, I am good, I commit less sin than you do. Alloh showed me yesterday that.... if He opened my sins for just an inch, I would be just.................................................. left. by everyone.

hiks, gimana ya,
Padahal ya, hati ini benerannnn kotor banget astaghfirulloh. akhlaq itu pancaran hati manusia. kalian liat aja deh kelakuan gue gimana, gak ada baik-baiknya. Beneran mau nyantren aja Ya Alloh biar hati ini jadi salim TvT udah gakuat lagi.

i am just too sinful for................ jannah. how can I even reach jannah if I am still like this?
Kok bisa-bisanya ya, saat hidup gue itu tergantung sama Alloh, kok gue malah mikirin pandangan makhluk Alloh. Mikirin ini, mikirin itu. Padahal yang harus dipikirin mah......... hereafter life. Yauda gitu aja. Nggatau sampe kapan jadi orang bodoh begini. Tobat ya, mba nida. Tq.