Nid,
you can do this. you have been thru a time like this before, you passed it. you made it! and you will insya Alloh!
whenever you feel sad, remember there are billions of cells in your body and all they care about is......... you. only you, none else. you are irreplaceable. the one and only khoirunnida with tons of good vibes on earth. you've got Alloh in your heart, and that should more than enough.
that is more than enough :)