Dear June,

Today I feel like completely confused with how i perceive love. you know that i am a desperate romantic, aren't you? i just wish someone will come for me, in the perfect timing and perfect situation. now, i push people away. i really do. my friends say that i am too picky. well, i am not! i am looking for habibae. i am looking for someone whom i completely trust. i am looking for someone whose love ain't hard with him. i am looking for someone so fit in my soul.. it makes me peaceful. someone who doesn't have any reasons not to love himself.

some people are just going too worldly. and others don't have big dreams for this world.
i am a hybrid. habibae should be a hybrid... maybe.

can i just meet someone who invents something magical for this world? for example like, maybe a flying carpet like aladdin, or a cure of cancer in pills, or maybe a whole new programming language, a smart way to invade venus, a way to make elephants a lot more little like cats. something magical that it impacts people so much.

or maybe... not that big.
simply just someone who has a non-profit school / program to help those who need.

someone who is as visioner as i am.

oh! maybe there is the problem, june! i am looking for a perfect habibae whilst here i am watching shitty videos on youtube everyday, laughing over nasty comedy, listening to "nggir ra minggir tabrak" and laugh over my own self then.

i might not as visioner as i think i am.

but...
but...
will i give up on my dream lists just because i want to be loved?
i guess not...

june, i think i am not ready for 22.
how about you?