It seems so hard because I have to pack my stuffs from my dorm, Islamic Quran Foundation, this week. And it is a permanent leaving. It seems so hard because when I want to get closer to Alloh and fix my life to a right way, there is something happened and makes me can not live in dorm. I know you might think...
This afternoon, my chest hurt so badly I think it's worse than I've experienced about 2 weeks ago. Then I bleed, again. There, I realized something, bisa aja karena: I drank two effin cups of coffee today - the iced one from the refrigerator; the super unhealthy kinda of coffee Gue sudah jahat sama banyak orang, it corrupts myself I guess. Kejahatan gue...
This morning, my mom came to Islamic Qur'an Foundation for the very first time. She picked up me and my stuff in dorm. Ya, secara fisik, khoirunnida sudah membawa barang-barang pergi dari asrama. Tapi belum pamit secara official ke para asatidz dan astadizah yang ada di IQF, ke ummi dan ustadz sugeng (plus daud yang masih kicil), ke teman-teman dari asrama lain juga....
Welcome back, my lady! -Siti Zahra, a male cat with female name. Oooooo... How I really miss my room. My little tiny cutie pie room. My sweety pinky room. My love, the place where I find light and eaten by darkness. The one I share my life with, the one who knows who the real me is, I am back! There is, of...
This week, I learn something about life: Those who love me will always stay with me. I can differentiate those who pretend to love me, who truly love me, who care about me surprisingly, and who don't care about me at all :) I might be afraid to face society later but..... I have people who love me. I will not be afraid...
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Waaaaw, akhirnya mau pindah Rumah Sakit. Insya Alloh akan ke RSUP Persahabatan di Rawamangun. Ibu emang agak-agak setengah hati sih naro gue di RS yang sekarang ini. Bad service banget lah.... terus, semalam gue udah super dying sampe dipakein alat pemanas tubuh. Gue ngerasa panas banget inside, tapi kalo dipegang orang ternyata dingin parah. Menggigil gitu serem deh udah gabisa mikir apa-apa kecuali...
Bukankah Allah memberikan ujian bagi tiap hambanya karena Allah tau ia mampu, Nida? Jangan takut. Allah bersama orang-orang yang sabar. Insya Allah, ini jalan Allah untuk menghapus dosa-dosa Nida. Nida harus kuat. Harus sembuh. Harus sehat lagi. Harus selalu ceria lagi. Jangan putus asa... everything is not gonna be as scary as it looks like. Everything will be alright insya Allah. لوْ كُنتُ...
Thanks subscribers yg syudah bawain ini. Enak banget yah ternyata.. pelipur lara di kala gabole makan apapun selain yang hambar-hambar hahahaha *tears* Bersyukurlah kalian yang masih diberikan kenikmatan oleh Alloh untuk merasakan lezatnya makanan-makanan :") ...
Setiap abis dikasih semangat sama orang, entah keluarga atau teman, pasti gue nangis diyam-diyam. Duh, please orang-orang jangan ada yang nyemangatinku. PLIS BANGET. I'm so touched by your all concern. It makes me cry hahaha :") It's like I don't deserve any love at all.... ...
Doctor has stated it. And by that, I officially have to follow all treatment procedures. I have to live in home and reduce my activities. By this, I have to pack my bag and leave Indonesian Qur'an Foundation. This is the saddest part. Some people say that Al-Qur'an chooses which people should stay with it. I wonder, is this how Qur'an eliminate me?...
There is a certain kind of girl who cries herself to sleep. She’s not the girl you’re thinking of – the meek, the weak, and the always helpless one. No, those girls always find comfort. It’s almost like the shoulders of love were built for those girls to cry on. Perhaps they cry from time to time like any other girl. But they...
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For the first time in forever: nida is hospitalized. ...
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Strength
Although not many of us enjoy hearing the blatant truth, sometimes life isn’t easy. We often see people finding themselves in less than ideal situations where they succumb to their problems instead of finding the strength to fight. However, strength isn’t something that can be found overnight. It also isn’t something that just comes and goes. Strength is all about experiences. Cold, painful,...
Love is a tricky thing. It varies in intensity and in the specificity of emotions. It is sometimes the most beautiful thing in the world and, at other times, it’s the most horrid thing we’ve ever come face-to-face with. It’s odd how one thing could be the cause of so many contrary feelings. But that’s what makes love so beautiful – it’s the...
I really think that there is particular strain of people who are simply born to be in relationships. I don’t mean this in a patronizing way – it’s not as though the entire lives of these people are oriented toward falling and staying in love. These people have goals and ambitions. They have hopes and dreams. They have meaningful, important lives and yet...
