The reason why I hate feeling it is because it is completely the opposite of what I am looking for in this life: a feeling of peace. I know the only way for me to reach happiness is by expecting nothing from this life, from anyone, but Alloh The Almighty God. But, it.. it makes me expecting happiness. something that I know will never...

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Hey! These are photos I have in my gallery this week.  Monday Went to Desa Wisata karena ada berkas LPJ pelatihan asisten yang harus ditandatangani Currently read this e-book. Great Masya Alloh. love her <3 font=""> Tuesday Her new hair color is da bomb!!!! My fave youtuber. Students presenting their solution to a case study in CRM class. Great job! I should have...

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Living in 2017 as a woman is quite challenging, as it is in another previous or upcoming years, I believe. Truth is, life is always challenging for everyone. But, here I am talking about me facing life as woman in 2017. Emancipation has done its job since years ago, at least in my town. I don't have to worry to study high nor...

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Hi, Blog. Just finished assessing students' assignment. Thought it would be calming for me to just write anything here. Let me get it straight: yes, I am going to write about marriage and love again and again. I watched a korean drama about marriage entitled "Because This is My  First Life" this week. One of my co-workers got married last week. And today,...

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A friend will not (literally) share your struggles and a loved one cannot physically take away your pain… And a close one will not stay up the night on your behalf…. So look after yourself, protect yourself, nurture yourself and don’t give life’s events more than what they are really worth… Know for certain that when you break no one will heal you...

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Hi Hi, Alhamdulillah, I just got my first debut to present my study in a conference, which is ICACSIS (International Conference on Advanced Computer Science and Information System). The conference was held for two days, here is my story: Day One. Arrived so late, like on 14:00. Didn't get the chance to see my friend (Made Ayu) presenting her paper. But, after that,...

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maa qodarallahu khoyr. Well, how am I going to write about this...  So, I just got my LPDP scholarship final announcement few minutes ago. I failed. again (second time!). The good thing is, I am not even crying or whatsoever. Yes, I am a human and I kinda felt a very very slight sad because I felt like I made my family disappointed,...

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Hi, blog. I don't know why but I feel like telling you how my life is going on right now. Vulnerabilities. This, this is ain't easy to talk here. But I am trying to write down what I've been thinking in these past days. I got two comments about me and how vulnerable I am. Yes! those who said it clearly used the...

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Here again, me and the idea of love. Today, I feel like I need a validation, a feeling of secure. I did some stupid things like usual. First, I have been sent wrong documents for my conference application for several times, like more than 4 times in a row. I did even put my supervisor's names wrong. I feel so embarrassed. Second, I...

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It's sooo crazy sometimes to find my self feeling really sad when I happened to see/hear a slight negativity in my surrounding.But that's okay... because it is me!! There will be no 'me' without the extreme feelings, right? Lol.Alhamdulillaah. Alhamdulillaah. Alhamdulillaah. All praise is to Alloh for everything happened in my life. I know, there will always be sad moments, disappointments, and another...

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Hi, It's been days I got flu and cold, and I finally went to doctor yesterday. All praise is to Allah, now I am feeling much better. And I treat myself with having a usual weekly-self-pamper routine, lol. I don't know why but such activity makes me happy, mentally and physically.  On this very first day of October, I wish this month will...

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Love on the weekend, love on the weekend / I'm busted up and I'm loving every minute of it // As I now got new responsibility to assist another class, which means I take care of 7 courses in this term. Kinda crazy because full-time Teaching Assistant should only assist 4 course in maximum. But, here I am! and I am lovin' it!...

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pill, anyone? This is my first day going to office (which is campus) after 5 days off. Kinda shocked with the fact that there are so many things to do, yet so little motivation.  I assisted today's e-health class because the lecturer couldn't attend it for family reason (I KNOW, RIGHT. ONE OF MOTIVATIONS WHY I WANT TO BE LECTURER). Unfortunately, I sucked...

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Hi, Saturday people. I don't know why but the time when I woke up today, I immediately planned to write 'a day in my life' post. So, here it is. I woke up kinda late because my lazya$$ weekend vibes be like "yaudah sih hari sabtu ini". The first thing I did was doing laundry! My laundry today was 2 buckets since I...

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