Too many sins I've committed, too many steps of syaithon I have followed.
Yup, when we fight against our own selves, it will hurt. like a lot.
I still feel like a common girl sometimes. I want to do what everyone else seems to do.
But i know it is wrong.
I know it really is.
Even God warns me not to get close with it.
I want to follow what He orders me to and avoid what He forbids me to. Even.... even when it's really hard.

Biar susah sungguh,
di pintu-Mu aku akan terus kembali dan mengetuk.
aku tidak bisa berpaling.